Let's talk PCOD

 As many of you know, I have been diagnosed with Polycycstic Ovarian Disease. What that means:

1. My ovaries are little ass holes
2. The ovaries grow tiny cysts (sometimes not so tiny), when they are full, they burst
3. This can complicate hormone production

Lately this has been bothering me more than usual. I have been experiencing a significant amount of pain on my left ovary. I finally went to the emergency room because the pain was so bothersome. I absolutely hate going to the hospital. I feel that I've already been labeled as a wimp. People enter the emergency room with broken bones, and heart attacks- but I go to the emergency room for ovarian pain. And every time I go in and they find nothing I feel ridiculous  and extremely frustrated  Where is the pain coming from? I know I'm not making it up, so why does it hurt?

Fortunately.. or unfortunately (depending on how you look at it), the last time I went to the Emergency room (early January 2013), they found a complex cyst. It was revealing to find something, just to know I'm not crazy. At the same time, it was upsetting. Its upsetting to know I have broken ovaries. It is upsetting to not be able to function normally.

 I was placed on Metformin 500mg and Trinessa last summer to regulate my hormones, as a means to lessen the PCOD symptoms. The new routine did help my mood, my sex drive was through the roof, but it didn't affect my physical symptoms at all. I grow black hair on my face, chest, and abdomen (like a man), I have excessive acne, and sharp ovarian pain every time a cyst bursts.

Frankly, Im pissed. I feel like a freak. Im also kinda scared. What does this mean for the future  Can I keep my broken ovaries? I know a lot of women who end up having them removed because they cause so many problems. But what does that make me if I have no ovaries? I realize how stupid that sounds, and it shouldnt be a big deal. But today it feels like it. I needed to vent..